So did that title caught your attention? I'm not even there yet. Today I'm exactly one month away from the big day. The last month in my 30's. Exactly 39 years and 11 months. Not 40 yet!
Well let me tell you one thing (or many things); I don't know what I'm talking about. Gracefully? I'm freaking out! I want to run away and hide until I can forget about the entire thing. This is all happening internally, within the confines of my body who has surely been abducted by some dark force. I mean, I've never seen my body go through so many changes, not even in puberty (I'm still waiting for my boobs to grow for God's sake). And yes, I'm still hoping one of these days I wake up looking like Sofia Vergara (I do wish the transformation would take place sooner rather than later).
In the past year, like a fine prelude to what it is to come I've seen; wrinkles, dark spots, white hairs, loss of hair, sight loss and lots and lots of back pain. **Please, if you are 40 and not having any of these symptoms be kind and don't tell me!!
The good part of the story (there is always one, pheeww), is that I've never felt happier, never felt more me, than how I feel right now. But this is where it all gets confusing (or maybe I'm also starting with the dementia part?). Why is it that my mind feels great, but my body feels like crap? (again rhetorical question).
I've decided to craft away. Badges and such, to start getting more acquainted with my new number. After all it is just a number right? (I keep telling myself this). And what ever happens I know it will be AMAZING!! I'm grateful for everything that was and has been, I feel like the luckiest girl ever!
Mind you, the physical aspect is quite scary, but it is a good thing that is gradual, for now I'm certain (or am I?) that I won't wake up tomorrow with a full head of white hairs.
I leave with you this most sage words.
"It's not how old you are, it's how you are old." - Jules Renard
Did you do anything special for the big 40 or are planning to? I don't have any plans, I never do anything special on birthday.
Have a great Monday!