I hope you are well where ever you are, and thank you for still being here - if you are-
Giova
Monday, October 19, 2015
Getting a grip
It has been more than a while. I didn't expect this break to take so long, but I sort of let it slip by, and the more time I was away the harder it was to come back. Strange… I would have thought that after that "resting period" it would've been easier to get back, but no!
I'm rusty. I thought I was done and had nothing more to share, plus a lot of past demons kept resurfacing and I needed to be strong… to make them go away. But they just won't go away, they are there and perhaps they will always be, as a reminder of sorts…
Sometimes I think I am so fragile -handle with care- at other times I surprise myself with the strength that I have -unbreakable- but it is never the two at the same time -what a shame- … anyway this is starting to look like a never ending story… I'll just say that my hair fell out in chunks which led me to a doctor that said; "you have a thyroid problem take this medicine probably for the rest of your life." which made me look for an alternative route, but during this search I've been visiting the dark abyss of what used to be my old depressive self. Oh, boy!! I thought I will never have to see that self again, not look at her scared eyes in the mirror and ask her, NOW WHAT???
I will find a way out, this time with out any medicine (crossing fingers), I'm writing on my journal again, and I'm back at my sofa stitching, doing what I love, little by little, hoping, praying…
This is one of my recent works. Very personal... not at all what I usually show here, but what the heck! I'm all about opening up and confronting my "demons."
I hope you are well where ever you are, and thank you for still being here - if you are-
Giova
I hope you are well where ever you are, and thank you for still being here - if you are-
Giova
Me gusta tu arte. Me gusta la simbologia y los dedos de la mano y las lineas que trazan las peticiones a Dios...... Me gusta esa mano inmensa dispuesta a dar y recibir.....
ReplyDeleteGracias soberanas mil!! Peticiones mas dispuestas a la suplica ;)
DeleteSuch a powerful post Giova, and I really respect your honesty and openness. I think posts like this are so helpful to others - letting them know they are not the only one who struggles at times (and who doesn't!!) - and perhaps giving them the confidence to open up to. I hope releasing these words lifts you.
ReplyDeleteI love your stitching - so beautiful and you say personal - so I am guessing the feelings connected with that piece are similar as I get sometimes with my art journaling. Creativity can ground, soothe, release and keep us together sometimes. I love that you were brave enough to post and confront your demons.
Go gently and I hope the coming weeks get easier. xx
Thank you so, so much for your kind and encouraging words, they mean a lot to me.
DeleteSometimes I do doubt about sharing too much, as everyone is going through their own ordeals, and I think I don't want to add more to the world's ordeals, but it releasing the words does lift as you say, and soothes, so I guess permission is given to share.
A shift has happened and will try to embrace and learn from it all!
Thank you again!
I love your work and I love you!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the love, you have no idea how grateful I am for it. I love you too.
DeleteI can relate to this on so many levels Gio! I think that's one of the many reasons that I adore you so much! Sending love your way. Jillx (let's start planning our next meet-up!)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Jill, I do hope there is a meeting somewhere soon! I adore you too!!
DeletePeace, dear Giova...
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Patricia… the other day my yogi tea informed me that; "Peace does not mean to be free of conflicts. Peace is the ability to handle them." So I am working on handling them :)
DeleteThis is a really interesting and meaningful image. I like it a lot. Perhaps your next piece could have some yellow, red or orange in it symbolizing happiness and hope. Maybe blue is not what you need right now. Good luck with your health journey. Best wishes.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Jane. I have also given it some thought, about the color I mean, and how powerful blue can be, but unfortunately it is all my heart loves and wants at the moment, I am still not ready to give up my blue phase… on monday I will show another piece, and you'll see that it is not entirely blue…
DeleteThank you for your wishes, they mean a lot!
I just knew I had to come and read this post...we are dealt a mixture of things aren't we. I'm sure there is much guidance out there for you to link into and follow, and it's lovely to see your creativity. I'm sure it will lead to good things. It's all part of the story :-) X
ReplyDeleteLife is indeed an assortment of flavors, and thankfully I do have many wonderful books that help me along the way… I also believe good things will come, I'm feeling quite inspired, and I'm grateful for that… Thank you so much for being here :)
DeleteDear Giova, I think I mentioned this talk in one of my letters, but possibly not in enough detail for you to find it. It's those demons, as dragons Tara talks about. They haunt us all. I hope you find this helpful, or the stitching, writing, your journal, this space here. Whatever it takes, it's all courage to muster up the strength to take on our dragons. & amazing courage to share it. xo
ReplyDeletehttp://www.tarabrach.com/2015-02-25-from-dragons-to-schmoos-meeting-life-with-compassionate-presence/
Thank you Julia for the link and your lovely words. Will check it out this week-as it is almost an hour, need to find the time ;)
DeleteEvery little helps a lot!